screwed up
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
have i enough? i dunno.
its like y must u lie to me?
why why why?
i hate ppl hu lie n i tot u knew.
i dunno if i can trust u more.
i dunno if i can still stay with u anot.
this is too much alr.
im tired and sick alr.
i cant handle this.
if u want to be with ur frens then go.
i sacrifice so much
i even sacrifice my frens who are like sisters to me
bt i sacrifice so much,
is it worth it?
i dunno. cos u dun seem to care.
i feel so idiot and stupid.
being tied down with this relationship.
which makes me so sick and tired of everything.
how i wish i was as free as i was b4 i noe u.
how i wish i hav nv met u.
and how i wish i nv lived.
i just cant continue to live anymore
i just cant let this go.
i dunno what i am anymore.
i think i had enough.
and i think u had enough too.
ppl say i should hang on
bt some say tt i should let go.
wad m i suppose to do?
bt in the first place,
y do this to me?
i've had enough.
why must the person i love most
be the person who hurt me the most?
why why why?
i hope someone can get me an ans asap.
i just wish to slp and nv wake up again.
so that i dun hafta face u again
and so i dun hafta be heart broken again.

i wanna tell u all this badly.
bt the words just cant come out from my mouth.
im dumbstruck
im mute
im dead.

i dun wanna be tied down by u
by u and only u
i dun wanna walk out with u anymore
just to hear "i nid to go home"
and wen we leave the sch,
and ur frens leave,
u say "i can go home anytime"
this obviously shows tt ur frens matters more than me.
and this obviously hurt me
cos firstly u lied
and u lied again.
and most importantly,
i hate ppl hu lies.
bt i cant hate u

this cant go on like this forever
bt i wanna be with u forever.
so wad m i to do?
someone out there
pls give me an ans.

this is a crap post of how im feeling now.
on 19 sept 2007
@ 17:51

emo